100 Ways to Face a Dilemma

100 Ways to Face a Dilemma began its journey at the very moment self-referential photography became my way of communicating with the world. Throughout this time, I have taken more than 100 portraits of myself at home, especially in my bedroom in San Miguel del Padrón. Most of them were made during different difficult situations, such as my mother’s schizophrenic episodes, conflicts with my grandmother, and my own struggles while growing up.

I made photographs almost every day, and as the practice grew, I gradually found myself through it, dealing with my surroundings and constructing my own reality. Over the last few years, I have continued photographing the same place and the same story, but from a more intimate and enriched perspective, shaped by my personal development and the changes I have undergone in my life.

In the end, the goal I may always have pursued was not only to help myself, as I did when I took the first portrait, but perhaps also to help them. I still find it difficult to sleep at night while thinking about each of the images that has stayed with me. In every photograph, an emotion, a moment, a tear, and even a sigh became trapped. Together, they form something greater than any single image: they make up the portrait of my story, my essence, and what I am. The misunderstood image, poorly taken, blurred, and marked by technical imperfections. The trace of time, of the whole and its parts, of madness and healing.